Dance dance.

Words cannot describe how much I'm going to miss dance team next year. I already had so much opposition from my parents this year on letting me stay on there, I'm pretty sure that no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to persuade them into letting me join again. But as I've said so many times before... Royal Impact is like my third family. (first is real family, second is Priscilla's family ;D). Well next year it won't be the same either anyways, Monika is going to Western University, Elaine isn't sure if she'll join again, and majority of the team is iffy on it too since we're all doing Running Start.

Well, no matter what happens, I can't avoid the fact that I'm going to miss the dance team SO much the moment we disband at the end of the school year. It's funny how at the beginning of the school year, a few of them were complete strangers to me, but now we've all seen a side of each other that only we know about. At State especially, we saw the nasty side of a few as we stressed over cleaning up choreography, and the incredibly fun/crazy side of everyone when we played games like Truth or Dare in the hotel room. What was done in that room... oh my gosh it makes me smile just thinking about it. And certain dares shall always be within secrecy of the team ;) Seriously, going to Yakima with all of them was so fun, it was such a wonderful way to start off my spring break. We went to a diner, Sonics, the Sundome, and of course the hotel. The road trip back home too... just bursting out in song with Bri, Jeana, Monika, and Lynn in the car. I honestly don't know that many people that are willing to do that except them and a few other close friends.

The only sad part is that this was our last competition together. I should just be grateful that we're not like the other teams that disband right after State, but still I get sad about it. At least we have more performances together though! Also Kidz Clinic and Exhibition. I'm unbelievably excited for Exhibition, which is pretty much a showcase that we organize all on our own. Lashaye and Lynn say I should sing at Exhibition but I don't know. We'll see! :)

I have to savor these last few months with them. Ironically, State being our last competition is also kind of a relief because we don't have to spend all of our practice time constantly cleaning our routine. Now we can focus on Kidz Clinic until April 17, which means we can start thinking of new choreography. I'm doing the middle school age group with Monika and Lashaye. Plus Monika just put together a new mix of mostly R&B music, FINALLY, since I like that style more. As much as I love Albee's choreography, it's not really what I enjoy doing most. His is always, always hard-hitting and extremely sharp, but for once I want something flowy!

I think I may have just entered into the world of infatuation.

I'm not exactly sure though. I feel like I'm still on the edge, like I'm getting there but I don't want to. Haha I feel like I knew this would happen someday. I really just don't know.

Oh well, whatever happens will happen, but like I said before, I do not want to be in a relationship. Plus we never talk about this kind of stuff, maybe the subject will never come up :D

Bleh.

I kind of hate how sometimes our text messages don't go through. It's not a big deal, really, because I know with a lot of people I stop replying when the conversation dulls out. But thing is, with you, I don't know if you stopped replying or if one of our phones was being stupid and didn't properly send/receive a text message. RAWR. It's just weird because this never happens with anyone else I text, and you said it never happens with anyone else either. I guess our phones just hate each other -_- Not like I'm waiting by my phone, anticipating a vibration for a text message of course. Haha I'm definitely not the kind of person to do something like that. It just gets annoying that I don't know if my message got through or not =___= Happens at least once a week, I swear. Then when I later text you with "You didn't reply foooo!" you're all like "I did!! You're the one that didn't reply!" and you talk about how my phone is "hammered" HAHAHA. Such weird vernacular.

But yeah, it really does get hella annoying just because of the fact that it happens so often.

Seriously?

I feel like both sides are being a bit too close-minded right now. It's cause both are at the heat of their anger, which gets kind of frustrating. But at least my words are somewhat sinking through. I don't really know. But wow, I hope we get through this alright. What doesn't kill us can only make us stronger, right?

Rest In Paradise, Jun Seba.

I can't believe he's dead. I'm so unbelievably disheartened right now. He honestly produced the most amazing beats and I love his music so dearly. He was an inspiration for so many, and now everyone is just in shock that he has passed. I can't even write out what I feel like saying, my mind is still in somewhat shock.

This completely ruined my night.
And in the morning I'll have to write an essay with this heavy on my mind.

Nujabes?

I saw someone just post up on Tumblr a post dedicated to Nujabes, to rest peacefully and then other reblogged saying RIP and whatever.

Are you serious?! Someone please enlighten me on what happened to Seba Jun. I googled and yahooed but I don't see anything about him dying. Am I missing out on something here? My gosh, I hope this isn't true! I'm going to be so devastated if I find out Nujabes is really dead.

The Potential Boyfriend?

I hate saying I have "expectations" or "requirements" with what I want in my future boyfriend/lover. Too many girls (actually guys too) say they want THIS in a girl, THAT in a guy, et cetera. For me, those are all just bonuses or a plus, but not a standard. Sure I'd love a guy who can sing or dance, but I'm not going to automatically pass up a guy just because he doesn't do those. Sure I'd love a guy to watch a sunset with on the beach, or to just stay in having our own little movie night, but I don't want to have a "list" of requirements. Really, if males had their lists too of everything they wanted in a girl, I know I'd definitely fall short on every list out there.

The only qualifications I would expect is love, respect, trust, honesty... all those kind of traits. Because I highly doubt a relationship would work without those anyways.

Want me to make a list though of what I believe are pluses? (Just sayin').
I love those who are expressive through written words, with an ability to use their pen in creative writing. Personally, being the artistic person that I am, guys with a passion in art, singing, dancing, writing, bboying, photography, or anything else in the creative field is a HUGE plus for me. A guy who can cook, just because I'd rather stay in with a home-made meal than constantly go out spending money to eat at restaurants. I definitely love a guy who can appreciate the simple aspects of life, like cheesy gifts, going to the beach in the summer to see the sun go down, taking me to parks, the aquarium, downtown Seattle...

That's too much to ask though. Which is why I again say, these are BONUSES, not expectations.