Today I used the word douche.

Weird.
Anyways, I've been so happy despite being so busy! I know what awaits me so everything I'm doing now feels rewarding, even if my rewards are mere temporary blessings.
What I need to get done by tomorrow 4pm: Calculus take-home midterm & email it to teacher, Japanese Bunpoo quiz online, Japanese homework, Theocratic Ministry School Review for church, English final draft & submit it, Bible reading, Watchtower, clean make up brushes, charge camera battery, pack and prepare for Sunday, and possibly English homework assigned Monday & Tuesday.

So much to do, but I'm excited because the moment 4pm hits tomorrow, I'm going to have fun for 3-4 days straight :) Going to Silla's, and then Sam is giving us a ride to Kollaboration. Then on Sunday after church I go straight to school to leave for FLC/DECA conference! ahhhhhhhh that's going to be so much fun! Even though I'm still pissed that we don't get to stay at the hotel's there because some lame people who can't afford it are going on the trip, I at least get to stay at Lynn's house overnight with Silla since we're keeping that a secret from mom :D Hooray, sleepless nights with my two favorite girls!

Life is good.

Super shady.

I'm so irritated at my aunt on my dad's side right now. Never have I known such a fucking shady bitch, putting your greed for money/material possessions over family matters. Not to mention you don't seem to ever earn or deserve any of the money you get, you just fucking take it when it's convenient..

Like when your own mom is going through health problems, you just want to "help" so you can get her house under your name. Fucking shady, trying to look so helpful and caring. You're just a selfish, two-faced monster that wants money money money. I hate you, my parents are doing so much for grandma/YOUR mom and you don't care about her until you find out you can get something out of it yourself, like grandma's house.

Fuck you.

The cutest couples.

I honestly believe the cutest couples are the ones that somewhat act like kids. Where their idea of a date could just be spending a day at the park, watching a Disney movie, or going to the zoo. In public they barely show any PDA or none at all other than possibly holding hands. It does sound kiddish and immature, but from a bystanders point-of-view I think those relationships last the longest because the two individuals aren't attracted to each other for the mere physical aspect or for the kissing or for sex. Like Ann and Brian, it took them a whole year of liking each other before they decided to really call themselves girlfriend/boyfriend, and even now you'd never notice it at school because they never hold hands or hug or anything. Well, I'm sure they do when they're at each other's house, but you can tell that they just genuinely like/love each other; even their families like each other. Then there's Dalica and Gian, where they talked for months and after several months Dalica finally decided to be the "man" of the relationship and ask Gian out. Whenever I see them at school they are so adorable, and it was only just awhile ago when they started to hold hands in public. And knowing Dalica well, I know that she knows what she's doing and both of them aren't rushing anything because they like each other that much. Plus there's also Don and Sophia. I don't really know either of them too well but from what I've seen and heard, I'm pretty sure they'll last a long time and they are one of the cutest couples I've known. I almost feel like they're little kids, but not in a naive way.

Really, if you're willing to be in a relationship without all the touching, kissing, and typical physical benefits, obviously that means you're in like/love with the significant other's personality. And that means that nothing is rushed into, which results in longer-lasting relationships. Because physical attraction can only last a person so long.

Kisses.

Me: Clean my room and I pay you with cookies ^_^
Him: What do I look like to you -___-" with cookies....
Me: You look like da cookiez monstaaar :)
Him: How do I look like the cookie monster...
Me: Because you're blue and fuzzy and have googly eyes 8) hahaha sike! Fine if you're not a cookie kinda person.. I can pay with ice cream! Candy! Kisses!
Him: So you're saying I'm fat... haha! I love cookies and ice cream and candy and kisses ;) lol!
Me: Seee that's why you must help me clean, I could pay you with all that! Homemade cookies even lmao
Him: But I got all those at home, except for the kisses.. ha
Me: So kisses aren't enough :(
Him: Kisses are enough ;) hehehe
Me: Hahaha too bad, you don't get any since you won't clean for me xD
Him: Oh well I can just get kisses some other time, that doesn't involve cleaning!
Me: Hahaha okay okay sure some other time, whatever you wanna believe..
Him: So no kisses next time :(
Me: Maybe kisses and maybe not!
Him: So no kisses :(

Hahahahaha the funny part is that when I first mentioned kisses I was thinking of Hershey's Chocolate kisses xD Oh well.

:(

I'm tired of not having rides. I'm so disappointed that I can't go to the Puyallup Fair tomorrow, it's supposed to be 70 degrees! I'm not mad though like last time when Josh bailed out on us the morning of the plan, this time it's just that Hannah's sister can't make it back in time to give us a ride and at least we know the day before we were planning to go (tomorrow). But I'm just really sad and disappointed, I was so looking forward to the rides and the FOOD at the fair.

Seriously, if I could drive... we would have gone already. I'm so sick and tired of missing out on SO MANY things just because of no transportation, like Lupe Fiasco concert, a bunch of events in Seattle, and now the fair... SO FRUSTRATING AND DISAPPOINTING.

Sad face.

What I fucking hate.

I hate how I can't drive, and neither can the majority of my closer friends. I'm so damn tired of not going to a hangout or special event because I have NO RIDE. Especially today because I was so fucking excited to go to the fair, since I wanted fair food and to go on rides and to see him since I haven't seen him or actually the rest of TPC for months to a year. But no, Josh fucking bailed out THIS MORNING and had the stupidest excuses. Even though it's far, I have no sympathy because he could have said 'No' days ago. Instead, he chooses to flake an hour before we were going to leave. Not to mention it was nice weather.

I wish I could drive damn it. And I need a fucking job.

On point.

http://www.colorquiz.com/quiz.php

Your Existing Situation

"Craves change and new things, always looking for new adventures and activities. Becomes restless and frustrated when she has to wait to long for things to develop. her impatience leads to irritability and a desire to move on to the next project."

Your Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

Your Restrained Characteristics

Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

"Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence."

His arrogance causes her to take offense quickly. Only those closest to her know deep down she is sensitive and sentimental.

Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Your Desired Objective

"Wishes to live in a calm, peaceful, relaxing environment, where everyone gets along and there is a strong sense of belonging."

Your Actual Problem

"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."