I really like him. I don't know why but I do. His messages still never fail to make me smile and laugh. He's so quiet about his feelings and whatnot though, but now that I think about it, that's probably why I like him.

We don't really flirt much, or compliment each other much, or do anything lovey-dovey at all, now that I think about it. Just every once in awhile, a sweet comment makes it way through conversation and I'm left smiling. I believe that's why I began to like you, the subtlety of it all. You see, usually when I have my mind set on something, it takes quite a bit for me to deviate from the path I set for myself. I recall making a commitment to try my hardest to not like anyone during my high school years. I made myself have these high standards so that no one can match or surpass it. If a guy started flirting or if I noticed a guy paying a different kind of usual attention to me, I'd drift away or put a barrier around myself because it was easy to just tell myself to not fall for that person, not that I ever even felt tempted to fall for anyone in the first place. It was really easy for me. Even now, I still have that similar self-control to a large amount of my emotions... just not all obviously. Honestly, I never wanted to start liking you. No wait, scratch that, I never even expected to like you, so even the slightest infatuation didn't cross my mind for the longest time. Seriously, I didn't even know you existed until this past school year, and the only thing I viewed you as the first time we exchanged greetings was the guy that was supposed to pay for my movie ticket, to a movie I didn't even really care about. I only went because your friend who introduced us practically forced me to go and I had no other plans that night. We didn't even talk to each other that night, except for like five words. Then afterwards we just happened to text each other each day, but still no biggie. They're just text messages. Text messages for months on the daily, but still just text messages right? Soon enough though, even talking to you through these little words on a cell phone screen became a habit, an essential to each day. We began to talk on the phone every once in awhile, and before I knew it we would talk for hours even though our talks were and still are light-hearted conversations with too many laughs. Even up to this point, everything is so incredibly gradual that I've still never even told you I like you. But like I said, I'm fairly certain part of the reason behind my like for you is all that gradualness. It feels somewhat hard to explain, but I know it's true. Possibly more than friends, but very far off from being a couple. Maybe even stuck in this phase, yet I like it. I don't know, but let's just say that even though this is friendship/relationship is going possibly nowhere, I'm still happy and content.