I'm lost in a fresh new infatuation, with lingering feelings in the previous one still. I'm still a female with no strings attached, but I can't help but feel so confused. What the hell am I supposed to do? Going from an adolescent who loved to be independent and didn't like anyone for four years, to someone liking two guys at once. One I fell for the subtlety, while this other one I fell too quickly and feel like I'm rushing just because I know I won't see him for another year or probably more once I leave California. A summer fling or maybe more? I don't know, it's too early to tell. I just know that tomorrow will be the last time I get to see him.

For now I just say I'll go with the flow, but either way I still feel like I'm doing at least one of these guys wrong. I don't know who though.

My prediction was right... a lot can change over summer. I have to see how I'll end up once I'm back home in Washington. Maybe this new infatuation will die out, or we'll keep getting to know each other and it'll grow. I don't know, I'm still stuck in this dilemma.

Man, I didn't like anyone for four years.... I wish it stayed that way.