I don't know why I'm in such a bitter mood today, but I am. The tiniest, littlest things are irritating me. Maybe it's really from the fact that my brother doesn't get punished whatsoever from talking on the phone at 3:30am to a girl, while I have the most stupid punishment of not using my phone/laptop past 11pm for the rest of summer, when all I did was talk on the phone at 4am. Jordan also missed church the next day but nooope, nothing happens to him. I know it's really foolish to be so frustrated with something so minor, but no, this isn't minor to me. It just goes to show how unfair my mom is being, not to mention she has been my ONLY source of stress this whole summer. Do you know how much I want to talk to certain individuals late at night, yet I can't because I'm so paranoid my mom will barge in my room and get super pissed off for using my phone past 11pm? She says she trusts my brother more and blah blah, well you know what? HE DID THE SAME ACTION AS ME and got absolutely no yelling from her. This just aggravates me like no other. Add in the stupid rain today even though it's the middle of fucking August and being stuck at home all day other than the gym, and I'm in just an extremely negative mood. Plus at the gym, my mom got mad at me for texting while I was WORKING OUT. I was on the StairMaster and she got all mad because I should be holding on to the railing for safety and blah and was like, "Stop texting! You're texting all the time! Learn to control yourself!!!!!" which just really pissed me off because I can't even use my phone past 11pm, why can't I text while on the StairMaster! Also, actually I pretty much only text two people and don't even text them that constantly, while Jordan is on his phone 24/7 and texts 93845029842 times more than me. Damn, I love Jordan but I hate how he gets better treatment for no reason. He's 19 years old but this summer he doesn't have a job, he plays Halo all day, just watches anime, and is on his phone all the time. He's not getting punished whatsoever for anything, while my mom constantly yells at me for stupid little things while I'm actually the one attempting to be productive by redoing my room and cleaning the house.

Seriously, this is so not good for my health. Plus it's making me cuss more under my breath and this profanity slips out more often, all because I'm so damn tired of all this bs.