From Tiffany's Tumblr.

"FUCK! I really do fail.. Sorry" (Lol, saving this for future reference)

Excuse my language but shit I feel so stupid right now. I know I’m disappointing. I even disappoint myself but I felt so caught up in the moment and so angry that no one knew how I could have felt. Shit I don’t know if he was messing with my head. Which now I’m pretty sure after having a good conversation with him. I confronted him and was upfront about everything. He told me that I was saying shit to make him feel bad.

AS Well I’m sorry if it does, but I would never do that.. I’m just telling you straight up how it is and what I see. Cause you treated me like shit. You took me for granted. You kept me like your little puppy and left me there. I’m not saying your a bad person. I know you and who you are inside despite what ANYONE believes and I’ll still always love you. Not even despite of your flaws but also BECAUSE of them. I know your insecurities, but I have a TON of faith in you and I know you’ll do good and I hope you can have faith in yourself too. Cause if not, how would anything get anywhere. I even pray for you happiness at church, and ask God to watch over you. I care for you soo much, not like everyone has ever and you KNOW that. Yea, I was very hurt but you still made me happy. When you ask why love you when all you do is bring me pain? It’s not entirely true. You make me happy and I’m fighting with all my might to be able to be happy with you.

You really did take me for granted. And I always thought maybe you cared enough to put in the effort and try. You said we did twice and failed. But you could have at least change and learn from the mistakes so it wouldnt happen again if you really did or do want to be with me. Push away all the other girls instead of flirting with every one of them. It really does hurt that you dont like me enough to try and risk it but thats the way it goes.

I hope you know that, whether it include the “in” or not, I will always love you. No matter what happens. Now that we decided that its best to not talk, I hope we can come back stronger and better friends. That youd learn to open up and trust me and we can work through things together. I hope our closeness wouldnt be lost. Cause you are honestly someone I can feel so comfortable around and not have the worry to impress you like I feel towards everyone else. (sadly, yes, even my beloved girls. Im so glad to be able to have grown such a close bond with them, but I still feel the need to impress them cause Im not that interesting or fun to be around). But yea.. I hope our friendship isnt ruined after loss of communication. I am very thankful to have met you and you brought me where I am today. You taught me to not be ashamed of who I am and don’t hide myself, trying to fit in and act like someone Im not, just so people will like me better. Yes you taught me many things and I am thankful to you. It was worth the pain :) Just remember I have faith in you and believe in you. I know you can do great things and overcome a lot, but you just have to believe it yourself k? Love you

PLM My girls.. I am so fucking sorryyy. I dont know what came over me. I listened to what you said but chose not to believe it. He IS really a good guy, he just makes a lot of mistakes but who doesnt right? Dont be too harsh on him. I know I disappointed you guys and I disappointed myself too. I know you were mostly right and you were looking out for me. I am really thankful that I have people who care that much and love me that much :) I love you girls too. With a great passion ! heh I know what Ive been doing, and I know it seemed like I was constantly getting hurt, but I was happy. And I am pretty happy now. I know my stubborness is annoying and totally sorry for being such an ass but you still love me right??? hahah You girls are telling me straight up, all this shit so it will be better in the long run. I know. Your only doing whats best for me. And thanks for that. Im sorry :/ I LOVE YOU GIRLS ! (PS MICHELLE.. your blogs here and blogspot really do affect me. haha I love them and it makes me feel like im not alone :])

JF GAH FUCK. you dont even know that this shit has been going down with AS. Shit SO sorry that Im doing all this shit. I really do like you, but AS has been a big part of my life and my feelings for him were insanely strong. You really helped me forget about him and you truly make me feel pretty happy. No one has taken this affect on my besides AS in a LONG while.. Well obviously not as much as him. I pushed all the other guys out, but I really dont want to push you. I dont know. I do like you and want to try it with you. Your so funny and so non socially awkward. You make things fun and your pretty comfortable to be around. Not exactly AS level but you got pretty far REALLY fast. Like I can be stupid around you and joke around a lot and I feel like I dont even need to impress you and put on so much make up. And I kinda enjoy feeling more comfortable around you. YOU put in a lot of effort and your really sweet. I know you wouldnt hurt me.. but Im a little scared if I could ever to you.. Im soo sorryyy to be doing this and doubting you. Im a little scared of what could happen to us if things work out because your friendship is really important and your the REAL kinda guy who is considerate and wont lead girls on. You told me of your past relationships and that you never turn out friends in the end, but I wouldnt want to lose someone like you cause you are truly different than anyone Ive met. Im really glad I met you and Im happy to be with you but Im just really sorry.. And I dont even know if I deserve to be with someone like you. IM SORRYYYY