My motivation is just... gone.

I'm not even really sure why I'm crying right now. But just a bit ago my dad came into my room for a "talk". See, Dad never does "talks" unless it's serious so I got nervous at first. He started off saying, "You know what I noticed last night at the quad concert Michelle? You've changed." I was confused, "What are you talking about?" He noticed how throughout the concert, I was so tired and lethargic-looking. So I replied, "Well yeah, last night I got pretty bored. The concert wasn't exciting or anything." His response, "No... it's not just that. I've noticed that this is how you're always looking, every single day. Michelle, your face constantly looks exhausted. You've lost that glow, that vigor."
I proceeded to tell him about how it's true, I AM always tired. I'm always up at night doing homework because school is killing me from the inside out. He told me, maybe I should lighten up on the classes, take fewer honors classes. But no, that's not the issue. I've come upon this as my own realization and explained to him, "I know... It's just that, I feel like I've lost that drive to keep going. I've lost my motivation. Every single day feels so routine and I can't take it anymore. Everything at school is just so tedious, a repeat of the day before. And it's not just now, the same thing happened last year. Heck, it's BEEN happening ever since the 7th grade. Each year, during the middle of second semester, I start to lose that drive I had throughout the year to succeed. Everything is just so boring, I feel like what I'm learning in all my classes are all so pointless. There's no excitement in my day, just the same thing over and over."
Dad started to tell me, in the most loving way, about how sometimes life turns out that way. And that I shouldn't just view the things I learn at school as pointless. It might seem useless right now, but you never know what knowledge you'll need in the future. He says he understands because sometimes, even with working, he starts to feel like every day is just a repeated process and gets monotonous. After a lot of talking, he summed up his advice, "Michelle, you can't always change the situation your in, but you always change your attitude towards it."
Dad also told me about my horrible sleeping habits, and how I need to change them. I agree 100%. It's funny how I've known this for the longest time, and how I WANT to change, but I haven't yet.

I'm going to try from now on. And even though I've lost my motivation at school, I still have dance, DECA, family, friends, and of course God to live for. I need to get myself together.

Thank you Dad. Seriously, thank you. I'm going to try my hardest to change my mentality.