So I was going through my drafts in my Tumblr... and came across a "Bucket List" that was sort of being put together months and months ago. It wasn't really anything, just a couple of tasks on it, because at the time it was this big idea of all the stuff we wanted to accomplish together. "We" as in, PLTM.

I guess now it'd take a miracle for anything at all on this short bucket list to be crossed out. PLTM is so dead... and I'm fairly certain it won't ever be raised back up. Anyways, now the point of this post is that I think the fact that I will never have another PLTM moment in my life fucking sucks. I'm still friends with each of them individually, but I can't do it as a whole. Why? Because stupid shit and drama and people holding grudges and people having too much pride to forgive and stupid boys and stupid one-sided hatred that leads to further shit-talking and blah fucking blah. I don't know about others, but I am one extremely forgiving person. I may not give my trust out like candy, but I sure as hell always, ALWAYS forgive people even if they do shit or hurt me or whatever. I honestly think with all my heart that holding grudges is one of the STUPIDEST, MOST SELFISH acts ever. Especially when you start acting upon those grudges and making everyone hold that same grudge, just because you hate that person so much. Seriously, I mean if you don't even have the decency to just forgive a person, at least keep your little hatred to yourself. And damnit.. just FORGIVE. The Bible makes that such a vital lesson, and yet so many stupid people have too much pride to follow that counsel. People make excuses, "Oh but they really hurt me" and "I went through so much pain because of him/her". Yes, I have sympathy for you and maybe they put you through a lot, but my gosh, Jesus forgave the people who murdered him! Jesus forgave EVERYONE and they put him through situations a billion times worse than any living human can imagine. So suck up and just forgive. Forgive forgive forgive.

Okay wow I went way off topic. I'm just writing as thoughts come and go so blah. Anyways, I just hate how PLTM will probably never share another memory as all four of us together, because I really did have some of my best memories when we were with each other. Now there's all this damn tension and I just hate it because it's over petty drama.