Dance dance dance.

It turns out... if you don't go to Districts competition, you're not allowed to compete in State. WIAA rule. FUCK. I teared up a lot when Monika told me that, and then when I went home in my mom's car, I was crying like hell. Like seriously? State has been what I've been WAITING for this whole year. It's so important, and I don't think my parents understand how much it means to me. How much I want to go. Luckily I was able to convince my mom about it, as long as I can find another date of the special assembly day. What I'm worried about it Dad. When he makes a decision, he's fucking stubborn about it. And he's extremely close-minded and bases a lot of his choices off of assumptions. Pisses me off and frustrates me like crazy. I'm scared he'll say no. I'm scared he won't see how much State competition means to me. I'm scared I'll start breaking down and crying, and he'll get angry with me for putting dance over God. But that's the thing, I'm not! That's the reason why I want to find another day that the assembly will be held, so that I can go to that instead. The same material is covered anyways. But my gosh, if he says no... I'll feel so crushed. I already got mom's approval which got my hopes up, but if my hopes don't come true... Fuck. I think I might cry for a long time.