Pinnacle of bliss.

I've been genuinely happy and the feeling is just so bona fide and raw. It's not even that kind of happiness where it lasts the day just because I happened to do something exciting for a moment or two; this is like the internal happiness that gets ingrained from various elements, and it STAYS. I'm not even really sure what makes this feeling so different from the rest because nothing drastic has really happened, but every single burden is lifted other than some English homework.

It's probably the sunshine affecting my brain. There's that relief that the AP exam is over, and then on Friday I got to take a walk around the neighborhood with Peanut... wearing shorts! :D It was finally warm enough to not wear jeans or sweats all the time. For about a half hour, I walked Peanut with music blasting into one ear from my iPod, and on the other ear was my phone as I talked to Pogo. I just love taking walks so much, it eases the mind like no other and helps me get my mind off any problems. Even after I arrived home I still talked to Pogo though, which is odd because usually if I'm talking to him I say bye once I know my mom will see me on the phone, but this time I didn't. I simply went to my room and just continued talking for another 4o minutes or so before I left for the mall. Heh, we're planning a trip to the beach for next week! :D That night I also had a really wonderful talk with my mom as we went to the mall to eat, and then TJ Maxx to shop. She really is amazing, she sacrificed so much for Jordan and I. Six whole years of tough dentistry schooling in one of the top schools in Indonesia, only to throw the job away after two years of work. I feel sorry she's left with this thought in her head of whether or not it was a mistake to quit being a dentist. Actually, I don't want to repeat this story, I just wrote a really long post on Tumblr about it anyways. I'll post it up later.

Anyways, then on Saturday in the afternoon I played Powerpuff Girls on the GAMEBOY COLOR! It's so old, and the sounds are all jacked up haha. I felt like a little kid again as I beat Mojo Jojo with Blossom. Then later I went to LA Fitness with Mom and Jordan, except I really wasn't in a mood to work out and decided to walk around the Mill Creek area while they stayed in the gym. This time it really was just my music and me, because I didn't want to call Ton or Pogo since they were supposed to go to a debut at about that time. Seriously, I think taking walks out in the sun is the antidote to my stress, my regrets, my problems. All the clutter in my mind floats away and it doesn't even feel like I'm running away from problems--I'm getting rid of them by not caring what happens next. After my walk Pogo finally texted back haha, and from then on, my goodness I never texted so much within one night. We had a pick-up line war, but I obviously lost because I seriously don't know any and Google is a horrible source. He's got some super cute lines! It was pretty cute how it led up to the pick-up line war too:

(these are parts of the texts, relevant to the pick up line war)
Me (after talking about how I went on a walk): haha I didn't go anywhere, I just walked around doing nothing
Pogo: Oh sounds fun, too bad you're not walking on the beach, that would be better ha
Me: ahh I know huh, walking on the beach is <33, so relaxing!
Pogo: Yawpp you already know ;)
Me: Yeee get to walk on the beach next week :)
Pogo: Ha yawp you know what would be better? Walking on the beach with you ;) LOLOL
Me: Ahww, lmao that was sweet as starburst! Next saturdaaay ;D LOL
Pogo: You're sweet like cotton candy ;) and like sugar spice and everything nice hehe (since we were talking about Powerpuff Girls too)
Me: Shoot I got to step my game up, you're giving better compliments than me! Are you Jamaican? Cause you're Jamaican me crazy for you :D (lmfao this line always reminds me of Spencer by the way)
Pogo: Lol of course I give better compliments ha. Are you a ghost? Cause I think I want you to be my boo lol

Shoot I accidentally deleted a couple text messages haha. But he also had another line, it goes; "Will you be my circle?" "Your circle?" "Yeah because a circle has no beginning or end, it just goes on forever :)" THAT'S HELLA CUTE. Hahahaha. Cheesy lines for the win.

But now today, I am stuck at home all day to do homework. I don't care, I'm still internally happy with not a care in the world.